So about a little over a month has gone by since my last post and I wanted to post an update.
I feel that I have been improving slightly on my day-to-day mood. I've met a great girl and I have gone out with her 3 times. I'm willing to work with her schedule as she is a single mother. And although we have differences there are many similarities between us. I like the fact that she is a strong mother and the fact that she is a Christian.
I'm trying to get over the shyness that I've pretty much always struggled with on dates. Many times, I feel like I'm not being myself and that I'm just playing a role which is wrong. I'm hoping that the more times we talk and hang out, the more comfortable I will become. I've always been a quiet person and many times I struggle having a conversation with someone. I will admit though that on the few times I have gone out with her I have been feeling more and more comfortable each time. So I am hoping that I will get better at talking and sharing with her and not be afraid of revealing the type of person that I am.
As I have said before, my faith is very important to me. I am not always the best in keeping with going to church regularly but I try to pray each night and ask God for help as I try to improve different areas of my life. Nobody is perfect and living is not always easy, but I do feel I am making some progress and that is heartening.
I have been cooking more at home and enjoying it. I used to dread all the extra cleanup that was required when I cook but now, I just suck it up and do it. I still have days where I order out for dinner because it's easier, but I've enjoyed finding new recipes online and trying to grow my culinary expertise.
With the weather getting hotter outside I haven't been walking at the park as much. I need to use my exercise bike more at home so that I'm able to get more activity in. Many nights after work I feel glued to the couch. Part of the problem is that I have low Testosterone and I had been skipping the weekly shots I'm supposed to be taking. For the last 3 weeks though I have kept up with them. Daily exercise I am realizing is more and more important the older I get. Even if its just walking around my house. Exercise helps combat brain fogginess (which I have suffered) and depression so not only are there physical benefits, there are mental benefits as well.
Thanks everyone for reading and here's to a good summer for all of us.